Pawns

It's late. Another sleepless night. I walk around the neighborhood reread texts and listen to music and stare at the moon. I like the moon. I could be a dharma bum. I could leave.

I had it once. I had what we are told we are supposed to have. I had a house, two cars, a wife with several kids, a career I was proud of. A little money in the bank. I paid for tv, telephone, internet, water, power, insurance, all kinds of insurance. I lost some of it, gave up on some of it, and still have a little bit of it. I now am happy to know that I need none of it. Neither do you. We are slaves to consumerism.

I'm not yet ready to go off the grid and leave everything to be a wandering sage. Not yet. I, we are also slaves to our responsibilities. My job is not yet complete. I have about four and a half years left. Of course by then my mind could change. I change and so do you. I am learning to be happy about change. May as well, not going to stop it.

I view the moon as the earth's still born child. Forever to follow her mother around. Dead. I like the way I see it. It's romantic. Sad. She, Luna, is beautiful. As long as she's there, turning, I know all is well.

I work for a government that does not work for me. Yet I still go and try to do my part, in spite of them. That is faith isn't it? I hope so. I do. I hope things will get better for all of us, but I don't think it will until we make it better. How? How do we, how can we make it better? I think about that constantly. I don't know. Maybe I will figure it out. Maybe you can figure it out and tell me. I know this though, it sure seems like we are being divided left and right and it seems like they want us further divided. I think we need to not be so split. If the people are split then the people are weak. That is evident and we forget that.

We can stop believing them, if we want to. We can read and learn for ourselves. The media is dead. They work for them. We have the same internet they have. We can decide things for ourselves. We have that power and they are trying to take it away. Of course they don't need to. Most of us do nothing about it and never will. We are happy to be fed the bullshit they give us. Make opinions off of nothing and still fight for your side...who IS lying to you. You know it too.

I could be a dharma bum. It may be the only and best way to win. I could do without them. All of them.

But I could not do without you. Any of you.